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            Odd. I’m usually quite sarcastic, witty, and animated, but lately I’m more apathetic than anything. Have you ever felt that if you were filled with any emotion other than apathy that your life would automatically shut down? If you really truly cared about what was going on that you would have relinquished and withdrew from the rest of the universe? I feel that way. Maybe it’s because I have this inescapable fear that my life is going nowhere—like I’ll wake up from a coma of conformity 20 years from now and wonder where my life went.
             We all dream of making a difference. Sadly, the biggest achievement we could ever hope to get is having our names written down in some text book that scholars are obligated to read in order to get some accreditation of being educated but nobody really cares about. That’s it. If you really stop and think about it, everyone who lived in the 1000s of civilizations before us have died. Why do we think that we will be any different? We can’t live forever. We’re going to die, too.
            We live our whole 80 years on life (if we’re lucky), we die, our death causes others anguish, and then we face our Creator in remorse for the immorality we participated in on earth. This is path that most “Christians” follow. If you ask me, that’s a waste. If you cherish life, would you end up any better? If you lit a pile of sticks for a fire every night and danced under the moonlight, if you ran off into every large open field of sunflowers you saw, if you tasted from every famous vineyard known to man in every country, if you watched the trees change colors every autumn from a coffee shop window, if you gazed at the sunsets and sunrises, if you stared at the snow fall as you drink hot cocoa cuddled up in a warm blanket, if you learned all major languages and could communicate to each culture group you came in contact with, or even if you became an astronaut, would all that make your life worth more than any other human in history?
            No. But maybe the question shouldn’t be, “What can you do to be remembered?” Maybe the question should be, “What can you do that will change those around you?” or “What would make your Creator proud of you for?” Small kind deeds. That sounds too easy, but if you tried to do it on a regular basis, it wouldn’t be. Impact those around you that are sick.
 
On hearing this, Jesus said to them, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners." –Mark 2:17
 
By doing this, you can make a definite difference in the world.
 
For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work. If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. If it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames. 1 Corinthians 3:11-15
 
I thought in my heart, "God will bring to judgment both the righteous and the wicked, for there will be a time for every activity, a time for every deed." I also thought, "As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals. Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless. All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. –Ecclesiastes 3:17-20